My Pregnancy Journey

So..... you're still journeying with the Crandalls?? :) Thanks to all of you who actually read these posts. ha!  I know I don't update very often lately. But I'm not even sure anyone's really reading, cause I never see any comments or anything. So feel free to leave me some love once in awhile! :) But then I got thinking it's fun for just me and Andrew to look back and read, and I'm sure I'll print it out one day, it's just like an online journal! So even if this is just for me, I enjoy writing!

Speaking of journeying... this pregnancy has been quite the journey. But you know what, it's going by a lot faster than I thought! Looking back now that it's almost over it seems like it just FLEW by!! Yet, some days seem to crawl, but they pass. No matter how long they seem to take! I am down to my last 2 weeks of working!! WOW! What an achievement!!! I love my job and everyone I work with...BUT I am soo excited to take on my new full time job of being a mother. I have dreamt of being a mother since I was old enough to recognize what a baby doll was. I am soo grateful that it's working out where I will be able to be a stay-at home Mom. It's my dream, to be at home and raise my kids!! It will be a sacrifice of course on our budget, but I can't think of any cause more worth it!!!

Pregnancy is such a crazy experience, and I am fortunate enough to say I have had it pretty lucky! Of course there are bad days where I don't feel well, but I am sooo extremely grateful to have this opportunity, when I know many cannot. And I'd be lying if I said I didn't have to remind myself of that at times.

It is the craziest feeling now that Boston has grown quite a bit to feel all of his movements! I can lay in bed at night and watch my belly move around and bounce!! ha Andrew and I find it very entertaining. He's so strong!! And he's very active. Definitely takes after Andrew already. Sometimes he'll just push out so hard my stomach feels hard as a rock. He's good size, and I'm grateful he's doing so well. The last Ultrasound she said she could see that he has dark hair!!! Soooo excited about that! Wow. ha He's been kind of naughty lately though.. He is NOT turning. He really should be heading south about now, to start getting into position, but the little stinker is comfy just the way he is. So see that picture to right in my side blog where it shows a picture of him where his head is down?? Well it's not. ha

I joke about it, but Andrew and I are really praying that he starts turning because if he's still breeched in 2 weeks, we have to discuss the options of a C-section. I am just going to be optimistic about it. I don't want to go down that road. He still has time to turn, he just needs to do it. :) Andrew and I attended an 8 hour birthing class last Saturday, and I feel a lot more prepared!! Andrew thought it was torture but he was a good sport. When they asked for volunteers in the beginning he raised his hand, not knowing it was to try on the sympathy belly!! ha ha it was absolutely hilarious!! I have pictures... but I'm pretty sure I'm not allowed to post them. Just imagine a 25lb belly with breasts as well!! ha ha The instructor then asked me what I wanted him to try and do with the belly on. I had him try and tie his shoe, and lay on the ground and get back up. It was great, and gave me a good laugh!! Andrew has always been very sympathetic though. He's great. And my favorite thing he tells me everyday, very sincerely is, "Cam, thanks for carrying our baby." I know he is very appreciative, and I love him for that.

One of the biggest things this pregnancy has taught me is that I am not always in control. And that's honestly big for me to admit. Not that I always feel like I need to be in control, but when it comes down to it, I like to know that I can get myself in or out of a situation, or change something I don't like. But there are many things with this pregnancy that I cannot control, and I have learned not to stress about them, because I can't change it. And as much as I feel prepared for the birth now, I know there is still that element of surprise that I can't control. I'd be lying if I said I'm not scared about the labor part, and the not-knowing what exactly will happen. All I can do is have a good plan. But again, since I can't control it, I will just try and be excited. :)

There is a new musical Christian artist that I LOVE!!!! She has a song on her new CD that made me cry, as I related it to my current and upcoming experience bringing this child of God into the world. It gave me the courage I need. It refers to the miracle of Peter having the faith to step out and walk on the water to get to Christ, and how we can have that kind of faith too, but it's scary making that first step into the un-known. And I know delivering this baby will be a miracle as well! I listen to it every day almost, and I think it can apply to a lot of situations. Have a listen. And everyone have a VERY Merry CHRISTmas! May you all feel of Christ's love, and spirit in your lives and homes. :)